Yikes!!!

I woke up at 6 am…

…in a desolate city driving around with people I almost know but not quite. With drugs and gunsmoke and and decrepit buildings all around. Pulled up in front of an abandoned apartment complex. We went up to room that had furniture discussed something and smoked something…

I stood in the open walking back and forth thinking I needed to go home and get my meds…thinking need is there…need something…

We tell kids don’t do drugs for a reason

Literally 20 years of bad decisions catch up to you in dreams sometimes. No I am not perfect, far from it. I’ve been there to that place where I just needed something and I am thankful that I have a home waiting for me with a Mistress waiting for me ready to sooth my fears and hold me.

When I was young I did things and made acquaintances that I probably shouldn’t have and I have paid the price over the years. I wonder if its starting to catch up to me. We are chatting while I am typing now. I know you are there for me in what comes and I am thankful for this. Today is a new day, full of promise for a better one.

We are not what happened to us, we are what we choose to become.