Uncharted future

No I don’t have a plan for the future. I have hopes and dreams but nothing more. I’ve continued talking with M because I still feel like I am connected to her be it in an ethereal way or not. The heart wants what it wants whether it knows what’s good for it or not.

If we talk on Wednesday about possibly resuming a relationship other than friends say a D/s one as before but with negotiated terms, what times to attend her less asking when and more just doing as asked. The thought of returning as a secondary scares me immensely but if I am presented the opportunity should I take it?

Hope for the best and prepare for the worst. I’m overthinking things I know that but you have been the first thing I think about when I wake and go to sleep. Is it just the idea of having a Mistress or is it more than that? I believe that it is but really is the feeling returned?