I still can’t imagine what I thought I was doing perusing what I thought was attainable by impatiently perseuing what I believed was possible. I improperly did what I thought was appropriate and failed because I was unused to approaching this with humility, with honor and I disgraced what I pursued.
So doing me really was not the appropriate thing to do. I don’t know exactly what the right thing to do is now except to step back. Be respectful about everything I say write and do.