Yeah I question my self worth alot lately. It doesn’t seem to help my understanding that I know how I screwed up. I lashed out in my uncertainty, fear and not knowing what to do.

Life is definitely more complex than what self help books say. I keep feeling like I am getting a handle on what to do next but I keep getting curve balls thrown my way and it sucks. I’m not falling to depression yet but I do wonder if there is a possible light at the end of this tunnel. The one I’m digging with my ineptitude, eagerness and confusion.

Time will tell I suppose. I still love you Mistress.