It is difficult to find someone who gets you on an emotional level as well as a physical one.
If everything were easy it wouldn’t be worth fighting for and attempting to do what you feel is the right thing. Yes a door was closed to me, mistakes were made but today I am still standing. Head held high and I know that what I did was right for me when I did it.
If I could go back and redo things differently maybe I would have. It’s a tough call. That’s okay because I wouldn’t be who I am without the mistakes and learning how to move forward.
Looking forward to the next chapter of my life I see promise in a new city. Promise in learning more increasing my computer skills and promise that a new partner will show up in their own time. I still have my dreams for a better future and a better me. So I will continue to move forward into a better place. A better me.
I haven’t changed who I am. I’m a complicated person who loves BDSM and all the complexity it has. The simplicity of surrendering to someone who you can trust. Someone that loves you as you are.
Yes I am still a submissive man. A man who wants to full throttle into a relationship with meaning. Lessons learned along the way include examine what is offered before accepting.
Negotiate the first thing before considering submitting and then do your best to communicate exactly what you need and want and to be patient. Yes I know that I am far from a patient man. That’s something I am working on.