A fatal exception 0E has occurred at 0028:C001E36 in VXD…

This is what it feels like with my attempts to bridge the chasm that opened between us. A gatekeeper is blocking the way. I can’t CTRL+ALT+DEL to restart my life again to fix the problem the gatekeeper causes.

The first hurl in poly has been crossed, now it’s the being accepted back that we have in front of us. I wonder if there is something the gatekeeper needs/wants that would change the need the gate to be barred on this bridge.

Both of us desire an in person dynamic, it is there. We feel it just out of reach, and part of who we are. Maybe the gatekeeper would be better described as the moderator. A moderator for our passions or maybe that is what is he fears. To witness but be apart of only one aspect of the relationship we share.

Everyone have fears. The most common is to be alone. Truly alone. If we are all together, even in seperate places we will never be alone.